Marilyn Yadira®

Your smile is like the sun I always wanted to see with my bare eyes without fear of being blind,

You came from love that I thought I never would feel,

You are so small but yet so powerful, because you hold my life in your little small hands,

I can’t imagine anything bad happening to you,

The thought scares me and I think I would die in despair,

You came back to me, I know you did, and I know it was you that I lost once,

Now I have you with me, nobody and nothing will take you from me,

You held tight and stayed with me, stayed in my womb, in this womb that I thought was good for nothing at one point in my life,

You gave me life,

You brought me happiness,

My angel from heaven,

Thank you for bringing life back to me,

Thank you for coming back to me.

By,

Marilyn Lazaro

04/16/2019

​It was all denial, 

It was all a lie,

The darkness overcame, 

And the sadness rose,

Loneliness became her friend, 

The loss of her child, even if he wasnt born, killed her inside, 

She was a mother, 

A mother that was never able to nurture, 

Because he was never born, 

How did she love him so much without ever seen him?

How did she mourn his death if she was never able to hold him?

Because she did held him inside of her, 

She loved him, 

She felt him, 

She dreamed with him, 

She sanged to him, 

She talked to him,

All of this, everyday, 

He was part of her, 

Even if it was short, 

She loved him more than her own life, 

She would have sacrificed herself for him, 

But it wasn’t meant, 

Now she pains,

Now she weeps, 

She cries, 

She screams, 

She begs for him to come back, 

She wishes death in order to see him,

But she can’t and she won’t, 

She wants to live for him, 

She knows her son will come back, 

She will love him until her last days.
By: Marilyn L.

If the sun and moon could talk to each other, what would they say to each other?

So far apart yet so close,

So far apart yet both need each other for life to exist,

Would distance stop their daily dance?

Can we say both are in love?

Is their daily dance a dance of love?

Both do this dance daily just to be close at least for a short period of time,

Too short may I say,

Sometimes we can see in the sky both the moon and sun together at daylight,

So beautiful do they look!

So happy do they look!

Will both ever be able to stay together in love?

But they are together they say,

Is their love sure?

For thousands of years the sun and moon has done this dance bringing forth life and happines to human kind,

Some call us the children of the sun and moon,

Are you my sun and I your moon?

Will our love survive for thousands of years?

Will we do this dance of love?

Have we done this daily dance of love, so to stay together?

I will do anything for your love,

Just like the moon I need my sun, you,

Just like the moon I shine and am bright with warmth when your next to me,

Just like the moon I am ready to love you as however many years this body of mine will give me,

Will you do the same?

Will you love me that long?

Will you as the sun never get tired of me, your moon?

Baby lets make love,

Lets give each other life,

Lets overcome,

Lets dive in,

Lets be happy as the sun and moon forever to be!

By: Marilyn L.

​Sadness comes like a cold bucket of water,

Loneliness is just that, lonely

Is interesting how I can feel the warmth of loneliness,

For only she keeps me warm through it all,

I dont want you to leave,

I cry inside, saying please don’t,

But this pain I have in my chest, inside my heart, is just too much,

I know you will be happy,

Who cares about me,

I will do just fine,

I can sacrifice myself for your happiness,

I can sacrifice my selfishness,

I just can’t take anymore separation,

I just can’t take anymore other type of separation,

Sadness, pain, and this feeling that I have of that I might end up hating you…

I love you so much,

So much that I want you to be happy,

I’ll let you free so you can fly,

I love you so much,

That I cant bear the thought of ever hating you,

When I die,

I want to remember only how much I loved you,

And, not how much I hated you,

We went through so much,

That I only want to have love for you,

And, never hate.

I know my life will be short,

For I have an unpredictable disease of where I can die at anytime,

What could I give you?

What left do I have to give you?

I can’t offer love where love might die at anytime due to forces out of my control,

I will let you free, so you can fly free,

I will cry tears of blood,

Who cares about me,

I will do just fine,

For I love you so much that I can sacrifice myself and be lonely for the rest of my life so that you won’t.
By, Marilyn L.

There was once a love I had

And, I loved him,

Oh! I loved him very much

And, I was happy,

Oh! was I so happy

There was once happiness

And, I thought it was so close for me to grasp

But, then came pain

Pain took over and took you away from me

Away from me to never have

You were like an angel I had in my possession

You were a rarity that only I had, only me

But you left, you were gone

I felt like I was making love to an angel

But then the world came and you were gone

I felt like I could actually be happy

But then doubt came and you were gone

I felt like we were going to be together forever

And, as if our souls had finally met after waiting for each other after numerous lifetimes

I felt like finally our souls could be happy

But no, because then you were gone

You died, you see, you died

You died and I can never have you back

You died and even if I wanted I could never have you back

You died and nothing could ever bring us back together again in this lifetime

I guess I will have to wait for another lifetime to love each other again

How many lifetimes should I wait my love?

How many years should I wait my soul?

How many decades must this soul be tormented until I finally see you again my love?

How much time must pass by until I finally get to kiss your lips one more time?

How much time must pass until god forgives us for what we did?

How much time must pass until we finally get to love each other as if it were for the very first time.

I miss you and I will always love you

My soul will wait for it has already done so in the past

My soul will wait for it will and must do

My soul will wait so it can be happy again

Even if it is for just a blink of an eye in dozens of lifetimes to come

By: Marilyn L.

11/06/2014